
Hiking in Maine. Nowhere near as treacherous as it looks.
Apparently, once one stops blogging, starting up again is quite the task. To clarify, I haven't been interning in NYC all this time. When I first got back, I was immensely busy playing catch up at work and with slumber. This doesn't account for the entirety of my absence, though. I've also spent much time reading books, watching movies, walking for the sheer pleasure of the motion, basking in the sun and quasi-crafting. And those are just the tactile activities—it goes without saying that many an hour were spent on self-reflection, experience cataloging, development of concepts and revisions of goals. There were moments when I thought that I ought to get back to blogging, but the satisfaction of partaking in the aforementioned activities always won over. Quite simply, I had come to enjoy life as a private citizen.
Whether it takes a great deal out of oneself or not, the act of displaying oneself, online, requires performance at a unique plane of existence. A heightened awareness, of one's experiences, is certainly at work; at the same time, I think there's a lack of awareness or, rather, disregard for confidentiality. The level of readership is irrelevant—you're out there, publicly, for the world's observation.
Blogging, then, is truly at odds with my primarily reclusive nature. Like the ocean's tides, there's a perpetual push-pull. Sometimes I enjoy coming out to frolic and engage on the shore, other times I find my peace in retreat, seclusion. And, yet, turtle-nature and all, there's something I find quite satisfying in publishing—that composing of a compendium of my fashion cravings, experiments and achievements. (Surely the word 'achievements' is none to great for describing outfits that have made one happy!)
All this is my roundabout way of greeting ye and catching ye up, once again.